Running the Way

In Love

This may sound random, but these thoughts have been tumbling through my head for a long time… I have been in love once. I didn’t even realize it at the time. When you don’t think you are allowed to be in love, you generally don’t recognize it. I…

September 3, 2010

This may sound random, but these thoughts have been tumbling through my head for a long time…

I have been in love once.

I didn’t even realize it at the time.

When you don’t think you are allowed to be in love, you generally don’t recognize it.

It didn’t work out. And I have never told him. And probably will never have a chance. Which may be okay, because life is sometimes just like that.

I regret that i wasn’t in a place to see it, appreciate it, say it.

I fear I may never fall in love again. But I entrust that to the lover of my soul.

Next time, I will be ready.

I hope.

I pray.

I wait.

One response

Ben D.

September 3, 2010 at 4:00 pm

<p>Hey Anon -</p><p>No, not an offensive question.</p><p>And no, he was not straight. For what it is worth, I’ve never been attracted to straight guys. Just never an issue for me. I find that is pretty common among the gay guys I know.</p><p>He was actually in a very similar situation as me in terms of sexuality in terms of faith, church, and sexuality.</p><p>Neither of us were in a position to really talk about and articulate the situation, and I am pretty sure he did not feel the same way about me… but all-in-all a complicated situation because of the secrecy, etc.</p><p>Anyway, that was the deal… and not handling it well on my end ended up costing me my job, community, etc — so all pretty raw. But it is what it is…</p><p>BD</p><p>BD</p>

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